Emptyness
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You’re a peach, Girl.
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I’m wondering if you may be describing the zombification caused by older meds. Life as a Sz does suck. You may be despondent about it. I don’t believe in accupunture.
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"Staxas" <sta…@zonnet.nl> wrote in message
news:7d762092.0312200824.65759cb7@posting.google.com… > I know I’ve wrote about this situation befoe, and I don’t want to > scare anyone, but I want to know if anybody has ever experienced the > feeling of emptyness that just won’t seem to go away? And if it has > gone away after a perion of years? Because this isn’t really like an > empty feeling, it’s more like having no feeling at all, like my soul > just decided to up and leave. And does anybody know if acupuncture > might be a solution? I’m just 24, that’s no age to be done with being > alive…
Music helps a lot. Looking out there beyond the bullshit and lies that are on this planet helps even more. Michelle
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Michelle, I like music too, but don’t like dancing very much. Occasionaly slow dances are okay. I’m shyer around loud beaty music than around more restrained music, such as: 1. Soft rock 2. R&B 3. Mariachi
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Cubit wrote:
I don’t believe in accupuncture. I write: I don’t believe in accupuncture or psychotropic medications. I feel that it is wrong to impose brain damaging and potentially lethal medications and procedures onto psychiatric patients. The cost of controlling a psyche patient outweighs the apparent benefit of personal and social "tranquility". In the legal sense, it contradicts the 8th Ammendment of the United States Bill of Rights. In the religious sense, it contradicts the Sanctity of Life. In the ethical sense, it is just plain WRONG.
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Staxas wrote: > I know I’ve wrote about this situation befoe, and I don’t want to > scare anyone, but I want to know if anybody has ever experienced the > feeling of emptyness that just won’t seem to go away? And if it has > gone away after a perion of years? Because this isn’t really like an > empty feeling, it’s more like having no feeling at all, like my soul > just decided to up and leave. And does anybody know if acupuncture > might be a solution? I’m just 24, that’s no age to be done with being > alive…
It’s partly a side-effect of the meds, but it’s partly a stage in the process of rebuilding your life. If you have some personal freedom, try tracking what interests you and doing as soon as the interest shows itself. After my last psychotic episode was over, I was like an empty house that needed furniture. I wish someone had been around to tell me that. Miki
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Dear Sataxas, I wanted to tell you what I experienced and maybe that will help you. Back in 1996 I became ill with Schizophrenia, depression, and anxiety disorder. I was devestated. I couldn’t do anything in lived in constant fear and agony. It is now 2003 and let me tell you what happened that changed my life. I hope it don’t give you any negative feelings. My intention is to show you how to change where your at. First let me tell you how I felt and maybe you can relate. I would sleep most of my day away. I would walk down the hall of my apartment building and have coffee with my neighbor. I felt anxious all the time. I felt extremely lonely. I felt like crying but for some reason couldn’t cry for years at a time. I mean I would be faced with extreme sad situations, but couldn’t cry. I felt like nothing would ever change. Like I would be unfeeling for the rest of my life not interested in anything. My family would visit and all I could think about is when are they going to leave so I don’t have to pretend any longer that I’m not in agony. I had several guys want to date me, but I felt nothing for any of them so I would just keep to myself. One guy wouldn’t go away and I would take comfort in his attention, but at the same time feel like I was a jerk for leading him on when I had no feelings for him. He wouldn’t go away though and I then began feeling empty and guilty for leading him on. This went on for years. I met a dear friend in this group and we became wonderful friends. It’s Damo. He would listen to me for hours and we would talk in messenger for hours and hours and hours. I began to feel alive again. He was what I lived for. Just to talk to him each day and I became very dependant on him. He changed my life. I started watching tv and doing much more for myself then before. Then this guy that I knew for seven years as a friend starting dating me. I wasn’t at all interested at first. I thought this guy is a really good catch, but I won’t ever just be his girlfriend because he is a worthy catch and fairly well off. I decided to take it slow. I was so lucky one day he came over and we made love and I was me again. I mean first it was Damo and he literally changed my life by being my friend and listening to how my life had been so pathetic and devestating. I know he gave me much more then I ever gave him. Damo thank you for being the best friend I ever had. So day by day seeing my boyfriend I started to feel like I’m more then this pathetic person plagued by this illness that has come upon me. I’m a woman that needs a man. I’m a woman that needs to try once more to be volnerable even if it kills me this time around. I was human again. It was a struggle and I owe it all to three people. One was my neighbor, Damo, and my boyfriend. We are now planning on getting married. I’m so lucky. I never thought I would get over the empty feelings or ever have love in my life again. Damo showed me how to love. Even before my illness I was a wounded soul that couldn’t love herself or anyone else. My life had been so tragic. Damo must have been the biggest support and healing force in my life. If any of you ever wonder about Damo let me tell you that he is the most giving and caring man I ever knew. This guy is truly what a masculine man is. My life has flurished because I was loved. So let me tell you that you need to expand your life and get out and do whatever it takes to find someone if you are at all interested in finding a mate. If a mate is not what you desire then you must get some friends that love you deeply and will stand firm for you. Friendship, love, and nurturing is the cure. I mean it will save your life. Maybe some people never get that in life. I was so lucky. I mean it could have been me that was one of those people. I could be miserable yet today if it wasn’t for the love of others that brought me to love myself. Well I hope that ramble will shed some insight. Huge blessings I wish upon your life. girl – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -sta…@zonnet.nl (Staxas) wrote in message <news:7d762092.0312200824.65759cb7@posting.google.com>… > I know I’ve wrote about this situation befoe, and I don’t want to > scare anyone, but I want to know if anybody has ever experienced the > feeling of emptyness that just won’t seem to go away? And if it has > gone away after a perion of years? Because this isn’t really like an > empty feeling, it’s more like having no feeling at all, like my soul > just decided to up and leave. And does anybody know if acupuncture > might be a solution? I’m just 24, that’s no age to be done with being > alive…
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I know I’ve wrote about this situation befoe, and I don’t want to scare anyone, but I want to know if anybody has ever experienced the feeling of emptyness that just won’t seem to go away? And if it has gone away after a perion of years? Because this isn’t really like an empty feeling, it’s more like having no feeling at all, like my soul just decided to up and leave. And does anybody know if acupuncture might be a solution? I’m just 24, that’s no age to be done with being alive…
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It will pass.
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Be wary of worms and snakes. 1. Lure 2. Liar 3. Lust 4. Lard 5. Leaf 6. Like 7. Love
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"Staxas" <sta…@zonnet.nl> wrote in message
news:7d762092.0312200824.65759cb7@posting.google.com > I know I’ve wrote about this situation befoe, and I don’t want to > scare anyone, but I want to know if anybody has ever experienced the > feeling of emptyness that just won’t seem to go away? And if it has > gone away after a perion of years? Because this isn’t really like an > empty feeling, it’s more like having no feeling at all, like my soul > just decided to up and leave. And does anybody know if acupuncture > might be a solution? I’m just 24, that’s no age to be done with being > alive…
You could try a career in a coroner’s office…. Maybe anothers’ spirit will come to inhabit you. Of course, if your actual spirit has left you and is hovering somewhere else like a "familiar spell" such that it seems your spirit is doing a lot of external work on your behalf….you may already be a "human ghost"!
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>I know I’ve wrote about this situation befoe, and I don’t want to >scare anyone, but I want to know if anybody has ever experienced the >feeling of emptyness that just won’t seem to go away? And if it has >gone away after a perion of years? Because this isn’t really like an >empty feeling, it’s more like having no feeling at all, like my soul >just decided to up and leave. And does anybody know if acupuncture >might be a solution? I’m just 24, that’s no age to be done with being >alive…
i deal with feeling empty. and also flatness in feeling. i think that is a side effect of the meds. my feelings were alot more intense off meds but it got unbearable. i think alot of people feel that emptiness. i think trying to fill up that emptiness is why ive had such a problem with addictions
