I did it!!! I did it!!! I did it!!! I did it!!! I did it!!!

Question:

Hello asapers, Something great happened, I mean I faced my biggest fear after 9 long years in to pa problem. I sleep away from home!!!! I leave my town with my girlfriend two days ago and drove to the adriatic coast. (a well known crowded place) Take hours of sun on the seaside and sleep at some friend of mine that live there for work. We also have a dinner on a place along the main street of the place, eat fish and drunk beer till 24.00 in the night. The day after we keep sunbathing ourselves, eat and swim the sea. I mean this is a miracle! I didn’t have anxiety all the time and I’m out of xanax more than a year. It’s amazing!!! I think this would help people to believe that come out from pa is possible. Take care all of u Ciao Marco Practice kendo, it helped me a lot with self esteem and conciousness!!!

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Hi, Marco, This is terrific to hear. So glad you have faced this fear. I wish you many more nights away from home…<g smiles, Elise

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That’s awesome, you keep it up man! Life should be enjoyed not just endured – glad to see you’re getting your slice of the pie. Gary

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That’s awesome, you keep it up man! Life should be enjoyed not just endured – glad to see you’re getting your slice of the pie. Gary

I’m still stoked, tomorrow I think I’ll go to sleep far from home again always at the seaside but just an hour far from my town. Don’t know, it’s sooo strange. My head is completely empty no more anxious thinking, always focused on the present. Just one year ago I was thinking that my life was ended in the anxiety disorder but….it’s amazing I have no word about it. Sunday night I’ll go out of my town to see tori amos show……the cornflake girl. Soooo excited!!! My changing started the day I faced my fear, and decided to work on it, found a pdoc and work harder. There were moments that I believed to fall and fall again but I accepted the fact that pain is the energy that make us change, and use this energy to understand myself and what wasn’t working on me. Plus I started kendo and all my changing became faster. People if u have a kendo dojo near u go to see a lesson and try it. I read books about zen and its the right path to me. Try to explain it it’s impossible to me, just started practicing all day, every day, evrey minutes, every second. Take care Ciao Marco Ps hagakure steps 1-184 As to what to do for the good, simply, we must withstand pain. If we cannot stand pain we are wrong in everything. 1-105 It is stupid to be alarmed when unusual things happen. These things are a mystery and an omen of something 2-18 Time and change wait for no man! It is because the times are out of joint that the world becomes more and more vulgar. Spring and summer do not last all year. No two days are never the same. Therefore, it is impossible to take the present back to the good manners of one hundred years ago. It is important for us to somehow take the right path in the present times. It is in point wrong for a man to look back at the past with nostalgia. This is because he does not want to understand that times are changing. On the other hand a person who hates the old ways, thinking that only the present is good is thoughtless.

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Hearing your success make sme want to cry with joy for you. Hearing your dedication is wonderful. I am so glad that you have made it. Gary

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This is fantastic Marco. Congratulations. Could you send a bit of sunshine down here please. Ciao, Meryl – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Hello asapers, Something great happened, I mean I faced my biggest fear after 9 long years in to pa problem. I sleep away from home!!!! I leave my town with my girlfriend two days ago and drove to the adriatic coast. (a well known crowded place) Take hours of sun on the seaside and sleep at some friend of mine that live there for work. We also have a dinner on a place along the main street of the place, eat fish and drunk beer till 24.00 in the night. The day after we keep sunbathing ourselves, eat and swim the sea. I mean this is a miracle! I didn’t have anxiety all the time and I’m out of xanax more than a year. It’s amazing!!! I think this would help people to believe that come out from pa is possible. Take care all of u Ciao Marco Practice kendo, it helped me a lot with self esteem and conciousness!!!

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This is fantastic Marco. Congratulations. Could you send a bit of sunshine down here please. Ciao, Meryl

Wassup merrrryyyylllll )) Hope u r fine, I’m pretty strange in these days because I realize I can face all the situations that months ago scared me for sooooooooo long. As I told you I had important changes in my life when I started practicing kendo, it was the first step, I mean all other changes came one by one, everyday, My girlfriend is amazed and we had bad times because she told that she really don’t believe that I could change sooo much I’m feel more confident with myself and the reality that surronds me. I know that I’m myself and I don’t care about the other. Kendo let came out the tiger is in me that scares me for sooo many years and for many many many differents reasons, I though this side of me should hurt persons I love, but refusing it was hurting myself. I’m me simply me and I love life, I love what I am and expecially how I am. I let the weights I was dragging falling down the stairs and now my arms are free to hug life and happyness, I have the right to choose what I want to feel about life, this is the most amazing thruth, no ones could tell how I have to feel, if I have to choose between joy or pain I choose the first because is this chance that make me free from all my pa. Love and hugs to all of you Take care Ciao Marco Ps I have long and sure contract in my new job place and I quit fighting with bad people, what they think of me isn’t my problem.

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This is fantastic Marco. Congratulations. Could you send a bit of sunshine down here please. Ciao, Meryl Wassup merrrryyyylllll )) Hope u r fine,

thanks for asking Marco. Life is difficult at the moment. Workplace issues that I do not want to discuss on Usenet. I’m pretty strange in these days because I realize I can face all the situations that months ago scared me for sooooooooo long. As I told you I had important changes in my life when I started practicing kendo, it was the first step, I mean all other changes came one by one, everyday, My girlfriend is amazed and we had bad times because she told that she really don’t believe that I could change sooo much

I remember how life was for you when you first started posting. You have made great progress.:) I’m feel more confident with myself and the reality that surronds me. I know that I’m myself and I don’t care about the other. Kendo let came out the tiger is in me that scares me for sooo many years and for many many many differents reasons, I though this side of me should hurt persons I love, but refusing it was hurting myself. I’m me simply me and I love life, I love what I am and expecially how I am.

This is so great. I am truly thrilled for you. I let the weights I was dragging falling down the stairs and now my arms are free to hug life and happyness, I have the right to choose what I want to feel about life, this is the most amazing thruth, no ones could tell how I have to feel, if I have to choose between joy or pain I choose the first because is this chance that make me free from all my pa. Love and hugs to all of you Take care Ciao Marco Ps I have long and sure contract in my new job place and