Guilty/depressed for the past week and a half…
Question:
Dear Laurie, I have felt that way. Just no motivation. It is something I work on almost daily and some days are better than others. Since I changed meds I have felt more motivated in the past month than I have in 5 years, especially around the house. If you don’t start feeling better, you really should mention this to your doctor. You don’t need depression on top of everything else you are having to deal with. I do hope you feel better. Vicki
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I have been in a funk. Depressed a bit, but able to pull myself out of it. I did have one bad night this past week… but I survived it. And I mean *survived* it because Joe was OOT. So I thought long and hard what could be troubling me, other than Mom’s cancer and things that are ever present. And I found out what it is. I’m guilt ridden. I’m feeling guilty b/c I haven’t unpacked yet from rehab (got home on 4/6). The suitcase is still in the hallway upstairs. It’s been opened, rifled through, picked through, etc., but not unpacked. And (this is the worst of it), both of my spare bedrooms have the doors closed. Why? Because there are clothes/shoes/purses EVERY WHERE. I went into the one room where the Christmas wrapping is (which is still out from 12/04), and I found 3 presents Mom gave me that I completely forgot about. You have to step over SO much crap. <sighing b/c of the thought I just can’t, for the life of me, get motivated to work upstairs on these two rooms. I don’t want to be up there and go through clothes I’ve never worn, or bought when I got terribly skinny from the drug abuse. I don’t wanna pull out my "fat" clothes (b/c I’ve put on the weight I lost… back to a size 12 or 14 again)… <big sigh There are two plants in one of the rooms. They must hate me!! This may sound trivial by the way I’m writing it, but it’s the biggest monkey on my back right now. Where the heck is the motivation in me??? ;o((( <depressed just *thinking* about those two, damned rooms —
