very suspect trigger for ocd.
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My mother piles up the guilt and blame, she takes her anger out on me and for some dumb reason I always feel I deserve it. I feel so helpless to it. Its so powerful, I have never been able to fight it. Even when she isnt laying it on me, I do it to myself. Always have. My mind is not my own. Sort of like a compulsion to feel guilty about everything. God help me if I make mistakes, but HE doesnt. Everything’s always the end of the world with my mind. I’m in hell, and I would have ’some nerve’ to try to escape. It just crushes me to bits. So much fear… On 15 Mar 1999 05:12:16 GMT, ad…@freenet.hamilton.on.ca (Louis – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Johnson) wrote: >guilt. >godam freudian muthafucka head screwin’ >life scuttling guilt. >a psychiatrist once opined that the mind’s way >of trying to get out from under all the >%$#&@^ guilt was to invent a distraction. >clearly it isnt the rational part of the brain >that comes up with this tactic but nevertheless, >well the trick does tend to take focus away >from the guilt experiences eh? this little >homespun cure much worse than the cause tho…. >solution? >screw the guilt, burn it. burn it all. >every last scrap of it. >you now truly could not care any less what *anybody* >thinks says does or maybe thinks says or does about you. >you dont care. >what the hell do they know anyway? >*dont fall into the boobytrap of worrying and >accumulating a crushing load of guilt. >parents are singularily notorious for this however. >but, speak for yourself. >screw the fuckin guilt. >and the fear. >and the doubt and the pain and all that >fuckin’ CRAP. all put together you couldnt trade it >in on a cup of coffee, so what the HELL are you >traipsing around with it all the time?? hmmm? >especially when the bunch that dumped it on you are no longer >living. >honust injun, noooobody gonna take aaaaany notice >if you just discreetly and quietly ….. >ho hum ….. >gonna dump it all riiiiight ….. there….. >do de do de do …….. >nooooo more guilt……. >dont have to worry bout anybody picking it >up either, they sure dont want it. >guilt is a curious load. >nobody ever loads it on themself, and the only >one who can ever unload it is the carrier….. >do they do it that way in the cargo handling business?? >nah, that kind of system is really quite useless. >dump the guilt. >it all slides off like slush on a tin roof. >little ity bity tip and shoosh!!! >all gone. >and what ho??? gee, neat, it swept the ocd >along with it…… >p.s. Im down to a measly 50 mg of fluvoxamine, >from getting zonked on anafranil for weeks on end. >much better now, I got this ocd pegged for what it is. >"know the enemy" >– >———————————————— >so if it aint yer fault, then >why y’a apologizing? >————————————————
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No in this case it is in bananas or maybe coconuts. Any how the EPA frowns on dumping hazerdous waste on the public roads. monkey <mon…@gilligansisland.net> wrote in message
news:36EF347A.544C1B73@gilligansisland.net… – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Hey Kirk, >So, can I exchange the OCD for 10,000 big ones? Is >that in American funds (gulp) – who do I make the >check out to? >mellnick wrote: >> Yes, but the EPA has determined that dumping a large amount of guilt (more >> than 3lbs) on any roadway is a federal offense punishable by 10 yrs in >> prison or a $10,000 fine or suffering from ocd. >> Good post Louis >> Kirk >– >Monkey >http://pages.hotbot.com/health/sillychickens/ >mon…@gilligansisland.net >(to email me axe ‘gilligans’) >–
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guilt. godam freudian muthafucka head screwin’ life scuttling guilt. a psychiatrist once opined that the mind’s way of trying to get out from under all the %$#&@^ guilt was to invent a distraction. clearly it isnt the rational part of the brain that comes up with this tactic but nevertheless, well the trick does tend to take focus away from the guilt experiences eh? this little homespun cure much worse than the cause tho…. solution? screw the guilt, burn it. burn it all. every last scrap of it. you now truly could not care any less what *anybody* thinks says does or maybe thinks says or does about you. you dont care. what the hell do they know anyway? *dont fall into the boobytrap of worrying and accumulating a crushing load of guilt. parents are singularily notorious for this however. but, speak for yourself. screw the fuckin guilt. and the fear. and the doubt and the pain and all that fuckin’ CRAP. all put together you couldnt trade it in on a cup of coffee, so what the HELL are you traipsing around with it all the time?? hmmm? especially when the bunch that dumped it on you are no longer living. honust injun, noooobody gonna take aaaaany notice if you just discreetly and quietly ….. ho hum ….. gonna dump it all riiiiight ….. there….. do de do de do …….. nooooo more guilt……. dont have to worry bout anybody picking it up either, they sure dont want it. guilt is a curious load. nobody ever loads it on themself, and the only one who can ever unload it is the carrier….. do they do it that way in the cargo handling business?? nah, that kind of system is really quite useless. dump the guilt. it all slides off like slush on a tin roof. little ity bity tip and shoosh!!! all gone. and what ho??? gee, neat, it swept the ocd along with it…… p.s. Im down to a measly 50 mg of fluvoxamine, from getting zonked on anafranil for weeks on end. much better now, I got this ocd pegged for what it is. "know the enemy" — ———————————————— so if it aint yer fault, then why y’a apologizing? ————————————————
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Hey Louis, Thanks for that post! I *needed* that after having dinner last night with my family … argh! I can’t believe I came from that family – who are those people? How did I survive? Why can’t they get their heads outta the sand? How come I am SOOOO different then all of them? Why can’t they see that I’m 31 NOT 13!! Flip the number around Mom! ARGH!!! These are my siblings? They are apparently much older than me? Aren’t then supposed to be wiser? Aren’t people suppose to learn from their mistakes? Gawd, why is it so damn hot in here? Do you people know about these things called windows? Yeah, you open them and this stuff called fresh air flows in!!! Argh! No Mom – I’m full! I don’t want more potatoes! I’m full! I’ve been eating on my own for a few years now, I know when I’m full! No dad, I don’t want to pull your finger! Why does the clock move sooo damn slow in this house? I must be adopted! Please! Tell me I’m adopted! … whew! I survived but brought home a truck load of guilt. I’m taking your advice Louis and leaving it in the truck. I’ll dump it out on the highway … who needs it? not me! – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -Louis Johnson wrote: > guilt. > godam freudian muthafucka head screwin’ > life scuttling guilt. > a psychiatrist once opined that the mind’s way > of trying to get out from under all the > %$#&@^ guilt was to invent a distraction. > clearly it isnt the rational part of the brain > that comes up with this tactic but nevertheless, > well the trick does tend to take focus away > from the guilt experiences eh? this little > homespun cure much worse than the cause tho…. > solution? > screw the guilt, burn it. burn it all. > every last scrap of it. > you now truly could not care any less what *anybody* > thinks says does or maybe thinks says or does about you. > you dont care. > what the hell do they know anyway? > *dont fall into the boobytrap of worrying and > accumulating a crushing load of guilt. > parents are singularily notorious for this however. > but, speak for yourself. > screw the fuckin guilt. > and the fear. > and the doubt and the pain and all that > fuckin’ CRAP. all put together you couldnt trade it > in on a cup of coffee, so what the HELL are you > traipsing around with it all the time?? hmmm? > especially when the bunch that dumped it on you are no longer > living. > honust injun, noooobody gonna take aaaaany notice > if you just discreetly and quietly ….. > ho hum ….. > gonna dump it all riiiiight ….. there….. > do de do de do …….. > nooooo more guilt……. > dont have to worry bout anybody picking it > up either, they sure dont want it. > guilt is a curious load. > nobody ever loads it on themself, and the only > one who can ever unload it is the carrier….. > do they do it that way in the cargo handling business?? > nah, that kind of system is really quite useless. > dump the guilt. > it all slides off like slush on a tin roof. > little ity bity tip and shoosh!!! > all gone. > and what ho??? gee, neat, it swept the ocd > along with it…… > p.s. Im down to a measly 50 mg of fluvoxamine, > from getting zonked on anafranil for weeks on end. > much better now, I got this ocd pegged for what it is. > "know the enemy" > — > ———————————————— > so if it aint yer fault, then > why y’a apologizing? > ————————————————
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