craving old love? ((ramble))
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Bri, Not only do I lament lost loves, I rethink lost jobs. Relationships and work. I have never had anything I loved that I didn’t destroy. I apprieciate the honesty and openess in your letter. You don’t see that in a lot of men . ;O) (thAt is a compliment) hummingbrd
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Call her or write her a letter and tell her how you feel. She may think you didn’t care about her and went on looking for someone who did, but still could care very deelply about you. All she can do is say YES or NO.
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odd that i would find this thread tonight. today i have been unable to put thoughts of a certain person out of my mind. i am still attached after 5 years apart. i am angry because i am (was) not loved. alone as usual on friday night. lny
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i don’t really know, but for a few months now it seems i can’t get an old girlfriend out of my head. she was bipolar, and had OCD, and was the best relationship i ever really had. she moved accross the country, and we tried to keep in touch, visited her this time last year. but being so distant we decided that a relationship wasn’t the best thing, and we went on being "friends", until i started seeing someone else. she got a little distant then, but we kept talking. then i get this mail from nowhere saying that things are over and she needs to move on and communication fell off dramatically. at this point all i want was to have kept in touch every once in a while. and she’s been on my mind so much it’s starting to disturb me. all the joy we sapped out of such a short time, even just as friends, seems i guess to much for me to just let go of, and i don’t see why she would want to either. as friends or more, we were good for each other, be it confidant or other. i guess i just miss a friend i thought would be around longer, and can’t seem to put a final "the end" on. i dunno. does anyone else ever find themselves hopelessly reminiscing about old flames for months at a time? it’s a little confusing seeing as i don’t want anything more than a friendship with her at this point. well, i take that back, but i’d be content there. a little peice of her world to sit in. i never did like loosing friends. and i think there was enough closure on everything for me to let it rest in the memoirs. maybe i’m wrong. maybe there’s something else going on? i dunno. anything relative would be appreciated. brian "in the maze he wanders, looks about and ponders. shadows mark and taunt him, as the ghosts that haunt him chain him to the ground…" Savatage
