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hi guys, the last few months I’ve been doing really good keeping my anxiety in check, it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve needed any meds….until today. Yesterday , came home from work, and feeling very tense, blew up at my 12 year old because she had not done the chores on her list. I probably over reacted, but that’s not the issue here. I had calmed down by bedtime. Woke up this morning feeling not -to-bad so I went to work, but 30 minutes after I got there I almost lost it and decided that I better get home fast. So I made my excuses and left, by the time I left I really was feeling nausous and very weak. And all the way home I was in tears because I couln’t stand the thought of it starting all over again. It’s been almost a year since I HAD to leave work so no one would witness me falling apart.and it’s been 2 months since i needed my xanax, But I took it today and a long nap and I’m feeling a little better now except for the fact the I feel worthless for needing the medicine today and the fact that I lost another whole day to anxiety. And I’m scared that it will get bad again , I ‘ve just started this new job (3 weeks ago) and I was hoping that things would stay good for a while. Pam : (
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Jaxatack schreef: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – hi guys, the last few months I’ve been doing really good keeping my anxiety in check, it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve needed any meds….until today. Yesterday , came home from work, and feeling very tense, blew up at my 12 year old because she had not done the chores on her list. I probably over reacted, but that’s not the issue here. I had calmed down by bedtime. Woke up this morning feeling not -to-bad so I went to work, but 30 minutes after I got there I almost lost it and decided that I better get home fast. So I made my excuses and left, by the time I left I really was feeling nausous and very weak. And all the way home I was in tears because I couln’t stand the thought of it starting all over again. It’s been almost a year since I HAD to leave work so no one would witness me falling apart.and it’s been 2 months since i needed my xanax, But I took it today and a long nap and I’m feeling a little better now except for the fact the I feel worthless for needing the medicine today and the fact that I lost another whole day to anxiety. And I’m scared that it will get bad again , I ‘ve just started this new job (3 weeks ago) and I was hoping that things would stay good for a while. Pam : (
Hi Pam, Please don’t feel bad about needing Xanax. PD probably is a biochemical imbalance which when triggered may well become a chronic disease. If Xanax enables you to lead your life without too many anxiety problems, take it. It means you need it. People with heart conditions need meds, people with diabetes need meds and there’s a host or other chronic diseases out there which require someone to take meds. Would you feel bad about that? I know my choice anyway: I’d rather take meds for the rest of my life and be able to actually *have* a life than to have panic attacks all the time and not able to lead a normal life in any way. Philip
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hi guys, the last few months I’ve been doing really good keeping my anxiety in check, it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve needed any meds….until today.
<snipped to save space It’s been almost a year since I HAD to leave work so no one would witness me falling apart.and it’s been 2 months since i needed my xanax, But I took it today and a long nap and I’m feeling a little better now except for the fact the I feel worthless for needing the medicine today and the fact that I lost another whole day to anxiety. And I’m scared that it will get bad again , I ‘ve just started this new job (3 weeks ago) and I was hoping that things would stay good for a while.
Pam, *please* don’t beat yourself up over needing to take medications again. This disorder obeys its own strange laws and comes and goes, often for no apparent reasons. You have a method of treatment that works for you, you’ve had a small setback. Knowing that you’ve been panic-free for so long means, IMO, that you can do it again and probably for even longer this time. IME, the thing to do is avoid fixating on the fear that you’ll have a complete relapse, take your medications and press on. I’ve found that it always passes. Good luck 
— Gary Cooper
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Thanks Gary, for the encouragement, I can’t believe how much it helps to know that someone actually takes the time to read and respond to my post. I am trying not to to beat myself up over this setback, because I ‘know ‘that it does more harm than good. I am taking an extra day off from work to get some strength back (this self beating really leaves you weak! 
) Thanks Gary Pam–feeling a little better today!
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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – hi guys, the last few months I’ve been doing really good keeping my anxiety in check, it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve needed any meds….until today. Yesterday , came home from work, and feeling very tense, blew up at my 12 year old because she had not done the chores on her list. I probably over reacted, but that’s not the issue here. I had calmed down by bedtime. Woke up this morning feeling not -to-bad so I went to work, but 30 minutes after I got there I almost lost it and decided that I better get home fast. So I made my excuses and left, by the time I left I really was feeling nausous and very weak. And all the way home I was in tears because I couln’t stand the thought of it starting all over again. It’s been almost a year since I HAD to leave work so no one would witness me falling apart.and it’s been 2 months since i needed my xanax, But I took it today and a long nap and I’m feeling a little better now except for the fact the I feel worthless for needing the medicine today and the fact that I lost another whole day to anxiety. And I’m scared that it will get bad again , I ‘ve just started this new job (3 weeks ago) and I was hoping that things would stay good for a while. Pam : (
– Hi Pam; I’m a bit slow on posts lately. Are you feeling any better, after your rest? I know how a new job can be stressful. If you were a diabetic would you feel bad for needing to take insulin. I try to look at my medication that way. If I’m on benzo’s the rest of my life, it’s okay with me. Hope you’re feeling better. — Kiesha Van Dyke To e-mail, remove ** from address.
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Jaxatack schreef: hi guys, the last few months I’ve been doing really good keeping my anxiety in check, it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve needed any meds….until today.<snipped for space Please don’t feel bad about needing Xanax. PD probably is a biochemical imbalance which when triggered may well become a chronic disease. If Xanax enables you to lead your life without too many anxiety problems, take it. It means you need it. People with heart conditions need meds, people with diabetes need meds and there’s a host or other chronic diseases out there which require someone to take meds. Would you feel bad about that? I know my choice anyway: I’d rather take meds for the rest of my life and be able to actually *have* a life than to have panic attacks all the time and not able to lead a normal life in any way.
Hi Pam, I just wanted to add to Philip’s post here. I agree 100% with everything he had to say. I to will stay on my meds for the rest of my life if need be. AND, I will NOT feel in the least bit guilty about it. As for the return of the PD. It’s one of those things. There have been times when I was free of attacks for up to a year with no meds. But this disorder seems to have a cycliccal nature with no particular rhyme or reason. You can be doing just great one day, and the next your having attacks again. I am afraid it is just the "nature of the beast". Please, don’t feel bad about needing meds. Life is too short to feel like crap and be scared all the time. Do whatever it is you need to make your life livable and happy! Best Wishes and Peace of Mind, Jen
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I’m a bit slow on posts lately. Are you feeling any better, after your rest? I know how a new job can be stressful. If you were a diabetic would you feel bad for needing to take insulin. I try to look at my medication that way. If I’m on benzo’s the rest of my life, it’s okay with me. Hope you’re feeling better. — Kiesha Van Dyke To e-mail, remove ** from address. </PRE</HTML
Keisha Thanks for your response, Yes I am feeling better today and I’m glad i took and extra day to feel better,work went much better . I know in my mind that the meds are what makes thing right for me, when I’m going through it, but I often make the mistake of ignoring the early signals and try to ride it out first , which is a big mistake. Any way thanks again Pam
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Thanks Jen and Philip I REALLY aprpreciate it. It means alot to me, especially since most of the time I can’t talk to my family about what’s going on (even tho half of them go through it too) Pam
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They’re are many components that trigger GAD/PD the results are neurological ( such as adrenaline flooding ) For me I look at taking benzo’s as if an epileptic taking their dilantin. It’s better to treat the cause rather than the symptom. Tim;) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – hi guys, the last few months I’ve been doing really good keeping my anxiety in check, it’s been almost 2 months since I’ve needed any meds….until today. Yesterday , came home from work, and feeling very tense, blew up at my 12 year old because she had not done the chores on her list. I probably over reacted, but that’s not the issue here. I had calmed down by bedtime. Woke up this morning feeling not -to-bad so I went to work, but 30 minutes after I got there I almost lost it and decided that I better get home fast. So I made my excuses and left, by the time I left I really was feeling nausous and very weak. And all the way home I was in tears because I couln’t stand the thought of it starting all over again. It’s been almost a year since I HAD to leave work so no one would witness me falling apart.and it’s been 2 months since i needed my xanax, But I took it today and a long nap and I’m feeling a little better now except for the fact the I feel worthless for needing the medicine today and the fact that I lost another whole day to anxiety. And I’m scared that it will get bad again , I ‘ve just started this new job (3 weeks ago) and I was hoping that things would stay good for a while. Pam : ( — Hi Pam; I’m a bit slow on posts lately. Are you feeling any better, after your rest? I know how a new job can be stressful. If you were a diabetic would you feel bad for needing to take insulin. I try to look at my medication that way. If I’m on benzo’s the rest of my life, it’s okay with me. Hope you’re feeling better. — Kiesha Van Dyke To e-mail, remove ** from address.
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i am a pa sufferer and its hell when you are at work and it strikes- but think of things positively thats what i’m trying to do now-you have been of the med. for 2 months so you can do it again – dont feel bad about needing a little ‘pick me up’ its better to need it just for a day than all the time again anyway got to go……good luck with the new job duncan
