Gosh has it been that long
Question:
Hey It appears that the holiday season is well and truly upon us again and today I realised that I have been a sporadic member of ASED for just about a year. Thinking about this has made me wonder how far I have come down the recovery trail. A little spoiler for behaviour and possible food mention feel free to sing along should you be so inclined. l a d e d a d e d a h d u m a short tune but I think it will suffice. Now where was I then and where am I now, that was my question. A year ago I was actively b/p several time per day Now I am not always that way A year ago my skin was grey Now it is not A year ago I thought there was no point to my life Now I do not. A year ago the struggle was incredibly hard from moment to moment. Now the panic attacks are fewer making it possible to function more of the time. A year ago I was terrified of every calorie sure in the knowledge that any food would be my very downfall. Now although still fearing I am able to allow certain food into my body and I do indeed live to tell the tale. I am not sure how far I have come and I know that there is a way to go. I am also still very unsure of whether or not I want to be where I am now. The temptation to return to the pit is strong. What should I do? I have absolutely no idea but I will see what happens as I continue along to where I am heading. Hope I like it there 
Apologies for public contemplation Penny
Response:
Thanks for the poem, it was more than a year ago for me with the b/p but I can definietly relate. Rusty
Response:
((((Penny)))), it is so nice to read of differences from last year & this year. It really does sound like you have moved forward some, & have had some healing. Sounds like you have taken some steps in this process. Try & just take things a moment at a time. Remember that this is a process. That it is normal, (I feel), to still struggle. It is progress not perfection that counts… You are not alone! My thoughts are with you my friend. If you do need help, please reach out & ask for it. The work is worth it, (one of my mottos, lol)! :) Ears There can be no transforming of darkness into light and of apathy into movement without emotion. – Carl Jung The voyage of discovery lies not in finding new landscapes but in having new eyes. – Marcel Proust
Response:
Hey Penny, Just wanted to give you some encouragement on the recovery trail. Doesn’t hurt to have some support. i am there, hiking along beside you. love, blue Before you buy.
