I messed up again..;-(
Question:
Hey Marloes, sorry to read you’ve had a bit of a bad day. What can I say, except that I still think you’re such a lovely person with so much to offer. OK so you messed up your plans, but please try and put this behind you. Was it the pressure of preparing to have this meal with your friend that drove you to this? I know anything like that is a trigger for me to "lose control". So don’t feel too badly about yourself Marloes, you are definitely not a failure! Try telling yourself that tomorrow you can feel the hope a new day brings, and you can look back upon this as a small, insignificant, tiny, teeny-weeny, minute, microscopic little slip-up.<g Don’t forget how well you’ve been doing of late re the panic attacks, you’ve been an inspiration to me! love to you, Sophie xxx — For more information about this service, send e-mail to:
Response:
I can’t believe myself. I promissed myself to eat three meals today..nothing else… Spoiler-time! (ref. to food & negative thoughts) q q q q q q q q q q q q q q q q q q q In about ten minutes a good friend is coming over for dinner. The stupid thing is… I just binged on coockies and other stuff and now I’m sooooo stuffed that I don’t even know whether there is room left for the dinner….. I messed it up again. I’m soooooo stupid I can’t even belief it!!! Have to come up with the old excuse….stomachache. I feel so bad to lie to my friend and to spoile part of her evening too. HATE MYSELF FOR THAT. Lost control. I feel sooo fat!!!! Tears in my eyes…I wish I could stop eating again, like I used to. I KNOW it’s not the solution, but I can’t see WHY it’s not… Every time I starve myself I feel unbelievebly strong and happy, but I know that that doesn’t last very long… love you, marloes If you go on doing what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you always got.
