Stand in the Door, if You Need
Question:
hi people, I gonna do my homework here and then bail out cause I don’t want to get caught being an addict. I have PD aand am given Low doses of Lorezepam(Ativan) and I function normally, but I have too take the pills to do so now I have a complex computer and i Have to take more my doctor threatened me( a lesson he called it) that if I persist in taking too many pills and running out He will put me in a group, and take my pills away! permanently. So–before I go I’d like to n=know if anyone knows what meds I can take that are not of One–Laxix- or lasix -something like that, do you know of any others desperate to kick out of this addiction. like(Not Love) Eddie
Response:
hi people, I gonna do my homework here and then bail out cause I don’t want to get caught being an addict. I have PD aand am given Low doses of Lorezepam(Ativan) and I function normally, but I have too take the pills to do so now I have a complex computer and i Have to take more my doctor threatened me( a lesson he called it) that if I persist in taking too many pills and running out He will put me in a group, and take my pills away! permanently. So–before I go I’d like to n=know if anyone knows what meds I can take that are not of One–Laxix- or lasix -something like that, do you know of any others desperate to kick out of this addiction. like(Not Love) Eddie
Hi Eddie, Welcome to ASAP!!! My best advice is to get a new doctor. I had a doctor like this once. I was taking Valium at the time, 20 mg. a day. Sometimes I needed more than the 20 mg.–Valium doesn’t work very well for very long, at least for me–well anyway, my doctor took away my Valium for one month, a punishment. Can you believe it? I went through Valium withdraw, cold turkey, I got real sick… but I won’t tell you the details, yeck, I don’t want to freak you out. If I had it to do over again, I would have told this quack to go to hell. Doctors that operate like this should have their licenses revoked. It’s called patient abuse. Don’t let him get away with it. If your current level of Ativan is not helping you, and your doctor won’t help you, then find someone else. Keep posting, Eddie, and let us know how it goes. — Chuck
Response:
: I know that I speak for the group when I say that we care more : than you know. Please take care of yourselves. Nice post Anita! I second what you said.
<reluctantly snipped Thanks, Arthur. The post was a hard one to write, and I know your response was even harder. I’m glad that you and me’s still here. Best wishes back at ya, Anita
Response:
: Thanks, Arthur. The post was a hard one to write, and I know your : response was even harder. I’m glad that you and me’s still here. : Best wishes back at ya, : Anita Hugs to ya Anita. Nuts! I can’t say much more now without sounding corny. Best Wishes, Arthur
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: I know that I speak for the group when I say that we care more : than you know. Please take care of yourselves. Nice post Anita! I second what you said. There are times when PD-related depression can get so severe that the saddness alone feels deadly. Fortunately, I survived to see the tomorrows that I thought I would never see. There is no simple solution to such moments. In my case, I simply reached a point of frustration where I had to say, "Alright, fuck everything, my life just ain’t working right now. My career is dead, my love life is dead, I’ve lost my apartment and money to endless doctor bills, I’m having all these horrible attacks, I’m misserible as sin, what the hell do I have to look forward too? I found myself crossing streets without looking in the hope some truck would end the awful pain." So, I figured my life was over. I made a conscious decision to drop out of humanity and began wondering which form of suicide I was going to choose; not an easy decision so it took a little while. In the mean time, however, I simply spent some time doing the things I still liked to do. I rented my favorite movies, wrote a few crazy stories, taught myself to read tarot cards, all those things that seemed unimportant over the years. It was like my own private end of the world party. Well, I enjoyed this private party enough to keep on postponing my demise. Eventually, I realized that I still enjoyed enough things that life was worth living, even with the horrible panic attacks. As the years passed, I even found a way to stop the panic attacks and now feel like a new person, reborn from the ashes of terrible years. I know this must sound like one of those naively optimistic tales, and this approach won’t necessarilly work for everyone, but it did for me and I’m happy that I gave it a chance. Hope some of this helps. If you need a grain of light to get you through the day, you may want to check out the lighter side of panic at our Amusing Panics web site (http://www.netaxs.com/people/aca3/AP.HTM). Best Wishes, Arthur
Response:
Hi, group, I like to talk about PD in an upbeat way, but I know sometimes it is complicated by depression and other things. Sometimes the despair can be so great that you need to turn over control to someone else. Sometimes I wish that asap could be right at your front door to help to see you through the bad times. All we can do is tell you that it does get better. If the feelings are too much for you, please talk with your doctor. If you don’t have a doctor right now, then go to the ER if you consider harming yourself. If you are feeling despair, please make some pacts with yourself (as I did). Maybe the most important one is that you will not harm yourself with the medications that your doctor entrusted you with. The other is that, if you have thoughts of harming yourself, you will stand in the door of the hospital and yell until you’re admitted. Something to remember is that PD, depression, agoraphobia, and anything else that comes with this heightens sensitivity. As sadness is amplified, so is gladness. Sometimes you have to work through the former to get to the latter. I know that I speak for the group when I say that we care more than you know. Please take care of yourselves. Lots of love your way, Anita
